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Monday, April 21, 2008

Only blueeee, only blueeee. /4/21/2008 07:00:00 PM

我的心我的心蓝蓝的

If only I have a mic with me now.

Well, today is a horrid one. Firstly, didn't really wake up on the right side of the bed, just felt moody in the morning. Monday blues you see.. Then this taxpayer had to make me so uptight and scared and I broke down after he shouted at me. I never knew I would cry cos of such ridiculous stuff. Whatever, I'm fine now.

And to make things worse, just when i dried my tears and forced a smile on my face, NTU called. Asking me to go down for business interview. So, rejected by double degree after all those who didn't make it got their rejection call loooong time ago. Just had to crash my world by overlooking my application and calling me only now, when you are about to send letter of acceptance to students. So does that mean even if I do go down for interview on Friday, my chances are much slimmer than those who went for interview before me?

So even after mugging hard, getting consistent results for 2 years, getting a leadership post in jc, doing lots of CIP, joining a damn fab cca, getting pretty awezum A level results, I STILL GET REJECTED BY THE SCHOOL I WANT TO GO TO. The reason why I worked so hard, why I joined HC, why I struggled to go for SYF, is cos I wanted to build up my portfolio and show I can not only study, so I won't cry just cos I can't go to the school I want to go to, like what happened during O's.

But still it happened. Somehow everything just seemed wrong. Worse still, my wugui was outfield and couldn't talk to me.

Heck it, as if my world will really come crashing down. Even if it does, I can build it back up again. What I can only do is to nail that interview, and work even harder. Because I know I'm not lousy. Because I know I can do it. Well, the only consolation is that, I do have a confirmed place at SMU already, I don't have to fear that I will be school-less.

Life's still good, well maybe thats because I have some super ability to get over stuff quickly, and pick myself up hours after I fall, and smile in 5 minutes after crying or being angry, and cos I don't remember how upset/angry I get. Maybe its cos i DO have STM.

Eh, life just got better, I found out, SMU Biz can finish in 3 years if you work really hard, and I still can get a double degree if I'm awezum after the first year. And, and, and, SO COOL THEY HAVE A MODULE ON MANAGEMENT OF PEOPLE AT WORK. ISNT THAT LIKE, OFFICE POLITICS?

What a long post this is. I'm in the karaoke mood again.

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